Right now I hate myself. I hate myself because I have now gained back 40 pounds of the 60 I once lost. I'm not eating veggies, I'm sedentary (the job doesn't help with that) and I really really hate my body. I don't want to have to go buy bigger clothes (or underwear!!) or anything like that. I have GOT to change. And I know that changing means I'm going to have to change how I see food and how I see exercise and I am going to need to get some serious help.
Because boy am I disgusted with myself.
And so.... (adding on) - I jsut joined Spark People, joined two teams and made my meal plan for the week. A meal plan I am actually EXCITED about! I feel much better!
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I totally know how you feel. I've never been this heavy and not been pregnant. I'm having a really hard time with it. I'm also having an issue with the fact that if I go buy new clothes, I'm 2 sizes bigger.
I'm glad you joined Spark People. It's a great support and a great way to get motivated. I've never really used their meal plans, though. You'll have to tell us how it goes.
We can do it!
I was BAWLING this week because I haven't been able to do do ANYTHING... not water aerobics or even walk around the house in weeks and I feel like I am getting fatter and fatter and feeling crappier and crappier. Eating cereal in the parent's basement and not moving at all, so much so that I get Pneumonia.
And feeling pretty much hopeless. So, yeah, I feel you.
And I should try to get back into Spark. I was thinking of re-joining Weight Watchers and Spark's FREE. I just need to do SOMETHING. Therapy didn't go well last time.
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